Stephanie Hollmanis ready to reclaim her life back.
During Wednesday’s episode ofThe Real Housewives of Dallas, Hollman, along with Mary Brittingham and D’Andra Simmons, participated in a sweat lodge, where the ladies engaged in physical and emotional healing and cleansing.
“I’m very grateful to be here,” said Hollman, 38. “I don’t know, I feel like I’m just searching right now, honestly … for more happiness maybe, within myself. That’s what my intention is — just to release a little bit.”
“I have felt very depressed on this trip,” she told cameras. “I’m hoping to release my shame of being back on antidepressants and to not have it all figured out. I just want to reclaim my life.”
Last week, Hollman got candid with her feelings aboutLeeAnne Locken‘s decision to speak openly about her painful history, including her past suicide attempt.
Stephanie Hollman // LeeAnne Locken.Mireya Acierto/Getty Images; Jon Kopaloff/Getty Images
“I feel a little off on this trip,” Hollman toldBrandi Redmondwhile on a group trip to Mexico. “I don’t know why, I’m going to be honest. I feel like you’re a security blanket for me. It was really heavy yesterday, I’m not going to lie. Like with LeAnne and her story, that s— is in my head and I start thinking about it. It’s f—– up.”
In 2018, the mother of twotearfully revealed that she attempted suicidewhen she was 22.
“I was with a guy who didn’t make me feel like a worthy person,” Hollman said. “I never felt pretty enough, I never felt good enough. I was always judged. We broke up and it was like, I lost my friends. And I just couldn’t handle it.”
“I remember going to the bathroom and finding a bottle of pills. And I remember taking them all, laying down in my bed,” she recalled. “My mom was home, so I stumbled into her room and told her what I had done, and then she called the ambulance.”
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“Because people don’t like to be around people who don’t make them feel good,” she said. “Nobody would want to be my friend if I was honest about what I deal with. Like, all the time. I wouldn’t have any friends.”
Real Housewives of Dallasairs Wednesdays (9 p.m. ET) on Bravo.
If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), text “home” to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741 or go to suicidepreventionlifeline.org.
source: people.com
