In both his career and his personal life,Justin Biebersays he has come a long way.
In arecent candid interviewwithNew Music Daily‘sZane Loweon Beats 1, the singer talked abouthis new albumChangesand how he has evolved in his relationships, including how much both his faith and wife Hailey Baldwin have impacted his outlook on the present and future.
But the road to their happily ever after wasn’t easy.
“I’d let [Hailey] know prior to the tour when we were hanging a lot. I said, ‘Listen, I’m still really hurt and still trying to figure out my way, and I’m not ready to make a commitment to you in a way that … I just don’t want to say something and do the opposite,’ ” Bieber, 25, saidof the time before they got together. “I was at the point where I’d done that in the past. And I just was honest with her. I was like, ‘I’m not in a place to be faithful,’ and all this sort of stuff that I wanted to be, but I just wasn’t there yet.”
“I think I was just hurt from my previous relationship,” he added when Lowe asked why he felt he behaved in that way. “I think I still was dealing with a lot of unforgiveness [sic] and all that sort of stuff. So to be honest, I don’t think I even knew what I was really struggling with at the time. I don’t think I knew I was dealing with unforgiveness [sic] .”
“I was just in a place where I knew I didn’t want to tell [Hailey] one thing, and … I felt like she respected me at the timeand I had a lot of respect for her, and soI just didn’t want to say something and then she’d see me off doing some other thing,” Bieber explained. “But either way, she loved me, and seeing me with other people hurt her. And so, with that being said, she went out and did things that hurt me. And so just this hurt — I’ve hurt her, she hurt me. And then before tour, we just really stopped talking. I was really upset.”
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While the “Intentions” singer didn’t name his ex specifically, he datedSelena Gomezfrom 2010 to 2012 and sparked rumors they were back together in October 2017. Theformer couple was spotted togetheras recently as March 2018, beforeBieber proposed to Baldwin, 23, that June.
“In my previous relationship, I went off and just went crazy and went wild, just was being reckless. This time, I took the time to really build myself and focus on me and try to make the right decisions and all that sort of stuff. And yeah, I got better. And so [Hailey] would reach out to people that we knew, [to] check in [on me],” Bieber said.
“You’d hear like, ‘Oh,he’s doing so well,’ and she wouldbe so pissed off because she’s like, ‘He’s not doing well without me.’ Right?” Bieber asked Baldwin, who was in the room with her husband and Lowe.
“As much as you want to think you’re happy for someone, it sucks to hear that they’re happy without you,” the model said from off-camera.
Justin Bieber (L) and Hailey Baldwin.Axelle/Bauer-Griffin/FilmMagic
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Bieber said he “didn’t know what the heck was going on,” so he “took a deep dive into [his] faith” to figure it all out — something that he told Lowe may have saved his life.
“It would’ve been no bueno. It was bad … I don’t know if I’d be alive, for sure,” the pop star said. “It was dark, really dark. So I’m very, very grateful to have influences in my life that have played a huge part in me, seeing theirrelationship with Jesus and their relationshipwith their wives and their relationship with their kids and saying, ‘That’s what I want,’ and I’m striving after that.”
Changesis available now on Amazon.com.
source: people.com
